For years, I have been on only two types of antidepressants, and for a while an antipsychotic.
While they did improve my mental health, I always found that I was still fatigued and my motivation never really got back to baseline.
I figured it was stress, and maybe working too much outside of my working hours.
I have experienced burn out a few times.
Single motherhood wasn’t easy.
I have always used multiple methods to track things as I got older. It didn’t register that the constant noise, the fatigue, the multiple agendas/reminders/electronic planners, and distractions were something more.
The “I will leave the boring stuff until later”.
The hyper-focus.
In September, I did a self reporting ADHD checklist.
I sat on it for two months.
I had a doctors appointment coming up to refill my antidepressant, so I pulled it out and looked at the questions again (you really need to stop and think about your childhood while filling this in).
I had no changes.
I sent the form before my appointment.
The doc and I had a good discussion (she has been my doc for 30 years).
She then gave me the diagnosis I knew I was coming.
ADHD.
We discussed options, and I was willing to try a medication.
She called in a prescription for Foquest. We set up follow ups.
I also had a therapy appointment that day. My therapist and I discussed the diagnosis and we will frame some treatment.
I started the Foquest today. While there wasn’t a big change on the lowest dose, there was a difference.
Not so much noise.
I could focus during webinars and completed tasks. I wasn’t tired and didn’t feel like a slug.
I know it is wearing off this evening – I am easy to distract and the static in my head is returning.
Will see what the next 6 days bring.
I’m hopeful!
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