Recovery?? Or Attempting Recovery??

So.

I had therapy Thursday.

I have been keeping my therapist up to date with EVERYTHING going on at work…at home…with my coping mechanisms.

I talked about my fatigue, but how I noticed a change. My window of tolerance has gotten a “bit” bigger.

I’m still tired at work, BUT it’s different. I sleep well (thank you Clam Sleep Stories) and I am okay when I get to work, then an hour or two after I start my day, I’m drained mentally.

Now, the 3 months prior, I was EXHAUSTED. A walking zombie.

Pure survival mode.

Burnt the fuck out.

After talking about how I am navigating my days and weekends, my therapist told me I am going through burnout recovery.

In a “perfect” world, I would be able to work half days to facilitate my recovery.

We are far from a perfect world.

My evenings and weekends are low key.

I am getting the rest I so desperately need. I have been sleeping late on the weekends, something I haven’t done in quite some time.

Thank fuck for my family. They do what I can’t. They support what I need when I need it.

It’s one day at a time.

Now that the weather is starting to change, I just need some sunny weekends so I can relax on the balcony (I tried when the sun finally came out later this afternoon….it’s freezing, lol).

Let’s see how June treats me.