I know, what you’re thinking: with this title, why in the hell is she smiling in this picture? Is she really happy? Is this a maniacal smile and did she totally go over the edge?
Well, in a weird way I am smiling because I am becoming an expert in swimming upstream.
It goes like this: stubborn, you meet the current head on. You double down and you start your swim.
You think you are making headway.
You look up.
You’re in the same spot.
You put your head back down, swim harder. Get frustrated. Look up.
Same. Fucking. Spot.
This is what it feels like when I am having a bad day.
(Heads up: Apparently this is now every Wednesday.)
I can’t control when my depression, or it’s companion anxiety, will smack me upside the head.
I can’t control when my body, dragged down by my mental illness, shuts down.
This week has been a full one of ups and downs, crappy sleep and some high level anxiety with a dose of blech.
One happy thing that happened to me since we last sat around the bloggy campfire: I am now a Nuun Ambassador for 2017!!
I used Nuun as my electrolyte drink of choice last year. There is always a tube (or two) of these electrolyte tablets in my bag. I have used a lot of alternatives in the past, and this has been the only drink that doesn’t cause GI issues for me. When the opportunity came up to apply I jumped on it!! So happy to have been chosen this year for #TeamNuun 🙂 (Also: Watermelon may be my new favourite flavour. Stay tuned as I have yet to try my Boost Lemon Lime, hahaha.)
In other news:
This week sucked hard when it came to sleep. It wasn’t until Thursday night that I actually had a full 8 hours. Wednesday night I was up and down with anxiety, only getting about 4 hours. Sleep is important for me, especially with mental illness. When it comes to training, sleep is one of the biggest things I try to keep as steady as I can. When I do, things are relatively easier to deal with. Also, I’m happier when I sleep well, lol.
A tad snowy on my way home from the track today!
I am getting close to the start of half marathon training. Yesterday and today have been very good days. I did upper body strength training on Saturday and was able to get 6.9kms in today with my BRF on the track at the Canada Games Centre.
Look at those sexy compression socks 😉
I am hoping to keep this good momentum going this week, but I realize that life will have it’s own ideas and I may need to readjust to make things work.
As long as I sleep well, things should be okay!
Here’s to a week of good sleep and good kilometres 🙂
